Divergent !

A surprising although not unexpected discovery : I seem to be Neurodivergent.

I’ll keep this short as there isn’t really much to say about it at this stage but it seems, from the results of some online tests that I might be slightly on the Autistic spectrum ie be Neurodivergent. I don’t know how kosher the online tests were although they were a bit like the personality traits test of the Big 5 model and when I researched that it seemed to test out OK. Whether or not it has any great clinical significance I have no idea : iv’e got through a moderately demanding career while being who I am and some things that I do I seem to do quite well – not that mild Autism is a diagnosis of mental disability in any way. More then anything else it came as a bit of a surprise only not that much of one.

If asked today, how do I feel about it ?, I would say ‘rather sad’ not in any way that I see it as a diagnosis of some awful medical problem but sad in the way that it’s taken me so damn long to work it out. It’s not so much a problem-ness as an is-ness : it is simply a fact of me that I didn’t know and feel that I should have. What it does do is clear up a whole load of things from my past that I didn’t try to explain at the time : for example that iv’e always been deeply introverted to the point of being asocial and when I get into things I really get into them and the things I get into don’t make much sense to normal people – Normies as iv’e started to think of them.

It kinda/sorta goes along also with me having a stroke related minor brain injury : we could say that the hardware of my brain structure was affected by that and that I seem to have slightly divergent software as the program that runs it the outcome of likely being slightly but definitely on that end of the Autistic spectrum.

That’s all I have to say about that (In a Forest Gump kinda voice)