Time to take a breather from this madness of crowds.
Blog time : it feels like the end of a weird summer here – we’re just escaping my usually most disliked month (August) and slipping into a cooler and so far wetter September. My boat attention has mostly been on the little CLC Passagemaker dinghy where I am on at least the third week of a few hours work ! – at the moment i’m having a bit of a fight with the repaint : yesterday, as I write, I wet sanded the hull in readiness for a first topcoat, checked the sky and then went and prepared my paint. While I started laying on my topcoat in clear conditions that clear sky gave me a shower within 15 minutes and I had to stop – not only was it raining lightly but the breeze was causing the paint to ‘skin’ very quickly ; when I looked this morning it was the worst paint job that iv’e ever done and I had to spend several hours wet sanding the entire hull one more time.
Today I thought to take some time away from the hard concentration of writing content about the recent events in the UK – riots and multiple stabbings – and instead get a bit more work done on the garden that I completely lost control with after my first stroke, and then spend a bit of time watching something relaxing on YouTube – except that my YouTube feed is packed with more and more of the same content about stabbings, 2 tier policing and now ‘doxxing’ by BBC journalists who should know a lot better and clearly don’t.
…...And then I woke up and realized that none of this is getting us anywhere……...
This week, I was just starting to work up a post in which I try to explain what I think we all mean when we end up talking about far right and far left ideologies when I suddenly came to the realization that it doesn’t matter a damn what I or anyone else remotely sensible thinks because our Prime Minister is obviously not going to listen to us. There is a further point here and it is basically something that Jordan Peterson said, something along the lines of not trying to change the world when we haven’t got our own house in order ; and following 2 recent strokes my house definitely isn’t order. The best thing that I can do is work towards getting my health in order, making my local environment a bit better and only then maybe having a poke at local affairs.
I’m basically wasting my time here aren’t I ? : right now my YouTube feed is rammed to overflowing with a whole load of posts from people who are even more angry than I am yet not one is making a difference. I for one didn’t vote so in a way I should just ‘STFU’ and get on with normal life and normal, for me, posting – so that’s exactly what I intend to do.
I have made up my mind about Keir Starmer and most of his cabinet and government so I don’t have anywhere new to go unless one of them ups and does something remotely helpful to the British population except we know he isn’t going to do such a thing and the best I can say is that the UK has fallen into the same kind of evil hands that most of Soviet Russia and eastern Europe did. Having recently described Starmer as a charmless party apparatchnik then I would have to now add that the mistake of having him is clearly ours as I, like many, didn’t vote and the only reason or excuse is that considered that there was no viable political candidate locally that I could in any way get behind.
Normal blog time resumed
I’m not just joking about my health problems and my immediate environment, I know that I hit some kind of physical and emotional low point and iv’e been through a horrible angry and volatile stage ; I just took a look through my recent draft posts and binned most of them – I also made it my aim last week to just try and go out for a walk and this week make some effort on the garden which I have totally lost control of.
Last week and this week iv’e experimented again with fasting as a maybe technique for dealing with my obviously cognitive problems – about halfway through week 2 and I woke up with a clear head rather then feeling groggy. This week I know I made one huge mistake in misreading an Ebay advertisement for the trailer that i’m chasing ; against that kind of background iv’e enjoyed working physically hard outside in the garden and that maybe contributes towards getting better sleep and a clearer brain.
This week i’m having a bit of a fight with the paintwork on the little CLC Passagemaker and a daily fight with weeds in the garden (I found blisters in the topcoat this morning) – but these are fights that I can win given time and work ; it’s also a lot more positive to be working towards things that I can have an impact on rather than things where I am basically pissing upwind – as a sailor would say and getting angry at the wind just because it’s set hard in the wrong direction.
This week also I have finally abandoned my previous failed writing efforts and instead thought of a way that my new and small dinghy might become part of a story, alongside my recent stroke events, as a kind of blog cum story.
For today though my shed door tells me to take the day off and go have a coffee break so that is exactly what I am going to do…….
I’ll catch you all later – for now i’m going underground a bit
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Postscript – a week later.
Inaction isn’t enough and to be silent now is to complicit in evil.
Dirty Wet Dog, the great adventure. 